Letter to my firstborn, Melina

My dearest Melina,

We are days away from welcoming your baby sister into this world and I have so many mixed emotions. I am so excited to meet this little angel that I have had the privilege to carry and nurture for the past nine months. However, I am nervous about the changes that it might bring to our family.

Your dad and I have talked a lot about sissy and have tried to prepare you for her arrival the best that we can.  It will be confusing at first I am sure. Mommy and daddy will do our best to be patient with you while you adjust to the changes that will be coming your way with becoming a big sister.

It is my hope that you two will share a special bond throughout your lives and make memories that will last a lifetime. I never had the chance of having a sister but sibling bonds are truly something special. Even if they seem like a pain sometimes. As you grow older, you will understand why they are so special.

I promise to continue to have special time with just you. At times that may be hard but we will make sure we still get our time together. Some days that will be cuddles when sissy is sleeping or doing each other’s nails. Others it might be a solo trip to Jungle Java or the movies to get your favorite, popcorn and juice!

I often find myself feeling guilty that your sister will not have me to herself like you did these past two and a half years. I worry that I won’t be able to balance my attention the way I hope to. And even more scared at how mommy’s patience is going to be when times are tough and I am worn out.

But then I think about how sissy has you to look up to and love her also. It is not just me, it is me and you that will spend most of our days with her.

How lucky is she to have such a kind-hearted and adventurous soul to follow? I can’t think of any other little girl that could be a better sister.

I feel so blessed that God chose me to be your Momma. You are the light of my life sweet girl. You have made me a better person and inspired me in ways I can’t thank you enough for.

I think God knew I needed you first to help me be the best mom I could be.

As much as I want time to speed up and bring us, sissy, I want it to slow down so I can soak up your snuggles and laughs. When you catch mommy staring at you a little longer or kissing you more, don’t push me away. Let me love your little soul before you transform into a big girl before my eyes.


I am forever grateful for our beautiful journey together. Our journey as a family of four will soon begin and I know it will be just as amazing.

Love always,





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